I wrote a book! I’ve always wanted to write a kids book but never knew what to write about. I recently looked at some things I wrote down in a notebook I used in seminary and it said “I want to write children’s resources.” I’m not sure what resources I was referring to back then!
God answered that and led me to write this book. This is not what I had in mind when I thought about stories for a kids book but there is no doubt God had me write it.
This is a book that I tested out before I even sat down to write it. As I ended my time in social work, I started having people tell me about demonic things they were dealing with. After I quit social work and started Kids Biblical Counseling, more and more kids came who clearly had some demonic stuff going on. I sought God for answers as to why I was getting this stuff, how to deal with it and who can I go to for help. I never thought I would go to deliverance training but I did. I never thought I would be used to lead a deliverance with a young adult but I did. I will never forget what happened during that or the change that occurred after. I remember saying, “This is as close to the battle as we can get.” It was pretty emotional to be used to pull someone out of the grips of a demon.
After making sure it all lined up with Scripture and after “testing” it out in certain sessions, I found this was truly legit and I called the publisher back. I had been ignoring their calls and emails for months because I was scared to release something like this. What if I led people astray? What if I’m seeing all of this wrong? Have I gone down a rabbit trail?
I couldn’t deny what I was seeing and hearing in my office. My heart broke for these kids. There was a Saturday when senses God was telling me to write it….today. So I got my notes and laptop out and started writing. Between Saturday and Sunday it took me 10 hours to write this book. I had already been doing what I wrote about. Already teaching kids about who they are in Christ so they can stand up to the enemy.
I prayed over the book and eventually submitted it. My prayer was “This is your book. You do what you want with it.” I prayed protection and then for the next 10 months I worked with the editing team, the art team, the page layout team, etc.
Then it came time for the book to be released and CHAOS started. Several hospital visits for my mom but they couldn’t find anything except high blood pressure from some pain she was in. Praise God she got an amazing report today that showed just how healthy she is!
During that time I was hit HARD with extreme anxiety, extreme fear, extreme discouragement and depression, There were times I struggled just to breathe. When I talked about my book or deliverance, my throat would close up. I would try to clear my throat or cough but it only released when I stopped talking about the book. I had been seeing 15-20 clients a week and all of a sudden I couldn’t handle more than 3-4 a week. I couldn’t function. I started having demonic dreams that really shook me. Everything just went real dark and I found myself craving all the light I could get and craving Gods promises. Scripture was and is all that I have wanted. Friends and family called and prayed over me. Met with me and prayed over me. I was doing EVERYTHING I taught in my book but I found myself terrified of my own book.
August 8th was my book launch party and I had such extreme fear and anxiety. “Death” was loud in my head. Then one hour after I got home that night I got hit with a kidney stone. Last week I was down for three days with the flu. Now I’m typing this while I lay on a heating pad because of another kidney stone.
In the midst of this I get texts saying how this book is helping a child who is in a residential facility, or how it’s being used by foster parents to help their foster/adopted kids see who they are in Christ. This book reaches all generations. I’ve had older folks tell me it has helped them greatly. I have heard a few stories of how it has helped them find healing and freedom from past abuse. My own family and extended family is also impacted by this book.
Someday I will enjoy what God is doing with His book but it’s hard when you are down sick all the time! I do have a very heightened sensitivity now for those who don’t know Jesus and are headed to hell. I was sensitive before but now it’s much more real to me. I almost pulled this book from distribution because I couldn’t handle what was happening. I’ve never been through a spiritual attack like this one before!
My prayer is that this book would reach every continent, country, state, city, town and village. So far it’s in 5 countries and that’s just from a quick Google search. But I know this blog has been viewed by over 15 different countries this year so I wanted to use this platform to share this book. I’m praying this doesn’t bring another attack but if it means people are being rescued then, well, I guess I will have to deal with the blows!
Go buy the book. Go through it for yourself. Give the books to people who need it. Go rescue people!
You can buy it on:
Amazon, Reader House, Barnes and Noble, Wal-Mart, Kindle, Google Play, the Apple Store, and I know I’m forgetting a few more!
I’ve had this song playing tonight. I don’t know why God chose me to write this book. I don’t have a major platform and I don’t want one. I’m a nobody in the Christian Authors world but the book is global. I keep asking God why me but He hasn’t answered me yet!
Go rescue people.
