Tag: GOD

ALREADY WON:

We have a new worship pastor at church, and he brought this song with him. I only listen to Spotify so I have no idea what is played these days on the radio so I’m guessing this song isn’t new to you guys, but it was to me.

He sang this song his first Sunday after saying that he listened to this song on repeat during a recent battle he went through. He didn’t share details. Just went straight into this song. I fought tears during the song and well into the sermon. I don’t know his story, yet, but I can tell he has been through some things and is now living in victory. He is absolutely anointed and the church WORSHIPS. Not just sings but worships.

He played it again two Sunday’s ago and this time I couldn’t hold the tears back. Although I have incredible peace about resigning and moving into the next thing, I continue to be overwhelmed and grateful for where I am. Not only that but all these conversations with kids who have either turned to Satan or are very much into things they don’t realize, yet, are Satanic. They just keep coming.

I had said, “No more ministry. No more social work.” I can just hear the conversation that must have happened in Heaven. “Hey, watch this. I’m going to show her kids who have turned to Satan for help. That will get her attention again!” Well…it sure did!

They are who I was thinking about while the worship pastor sang this song again. I have been praying, researching, reading and listening to podcasts about people who have escaped Satanism and are now Christians. Most of what they say, I have heard from kids and adults, and it’s been very jarring. I realized something, though. The battle I am engaged in for these kids and adults has ALREADY BEEN WON. I just need to pray about what God wants me to do and then do it. Let Him lead the counseling sessions and watch Him bring healing because I’m helping them fight a battle that has already been won.

I grew up Baptist. Spiritual warfare was talked about but not at length and we sure didn’t learn about ALL that Jesus rescued us from. When you listen to what people experienced under Satanic Ritual Abuse you start to get a better understanding of what the Cross really means. What the blood of Jesus really means. The POWER the blood has and the POWER that WE have because of that blood. Yes, we are all “wretched sinners in need of a Savior” but that’s not all that we need salvation from. We are saved from horrendous things that most of us will never see. It’s a RESCUE MISSION and we have been RESCUED. These kids need rescuing, too!

I was FATIGUED all weekend. Slept 17 hours straight and then went back to bed for a few more days. Zero strength. I even took 2 COVID tests that both turned out to be negative. I woke up with this song in my head, so I played it on repeat while I slept. It’s been playing on repeat today as well.

All through this adventure, God has given me songs that go with each step I take. It’s no surprise that this song came into my life at this time. I’m ready to start this new adventure!

https://youtube.com/watch?v=sM0ovt_nbd4%3Fsi%3DSCI3YDT_Yucxzu-I

WE NEED TO GET IT TOGETHER:

I used to have children who have endured abuse or lived in a domestic violence situation tell me about the angels they saw during those times. “It was always behind the couch with me.” “I could always talk to my angel while I hid.” Something has shifted, though.

Over a year ago I started telling people that things seem to be getting worse as far as abuse and neglect goes. The stories are getting harder and harder to hear. I wasn’t the only one saying it. I’ve had conversations with board members from different organizations say the same thing. “Our meetings are very depressing.” That’s when I started feeling the heaviness at work. It’s always been heavy but this was different. It led me to taking a break and starting something new.

I have prayed several times; “God, what is going on? Why are these cases getting so much worse?” I believe I got my answer this past week. “We would pray to God to help us and nobody ever did so we started talking to the devil.” That’s when things became VERY VERY bad for these children. In the past two weeks I have had three people say that line to me. It’s chilling.

I saw a quote today from a pastor that said, “The Christian life isn’t a game. It’s war.” Yes! 100% yes! I told someone recently that I feel like I’m starting to literally pull people out of the grips of hell. You have to engage in war to do that and without going through all that I experienced over the past year or more, I’m not sure I would have known what to do. But I do now. When I felt like I needed to stop things, step back and take some time off of work, I had no idea what I was being prepared for.

I recognized my need for rest yesterday and this time I didn’t try to push through. I rearranged things and ended up sleeping the majority of the day. Sleep is healing to your mind, body and soul.

I went to hear a talk on human trafficking today and was disappointed. The one speaker brought in a lot of scripture about us being called to help. I enjoyed his talk. The next one is what I was disappointed with. I kept waiting for this faith-based organization to talk about, well, that they for one are a faith-based organization and that they use a biblical based treatment for the survivors. During the Q&A time I waited to see what others asked. One lady asked several questions and a few asked about how the kids come to their program. I finally asked what the teens treatment looks like and was incredibly disappointed. Community mental health. Skills training. Nothing biblical because they have to respect that not all youth have the same faith affiliation. Are you kidding me?

This isn’t the first time I’ve run into this. Heck, the faith-based organization I work for doesn’t bring in biblical principals in our treatment to our clients because we have to adhere to the state. I met with another faith-based agency this summer and towards the end of the conversation I asked about using biblical principles. Nope. They respect that not all believe the same. I am not saying that community mental health doesn’t help people; I’ve seen people make some good changes. However, faith-based organizations are not giving these teens what will ultimately change their lives and bring healing and they are respecting all beliefs? What is going on?

Maybe if we actually had faith-based places sharing the truth with people, we wouldn’t have a family of children waiting for help and when it didn’t come, and God wasn’t coming through for them they decide to turn to Satan. Can THAT be enough for people to live out their faith? Not just be Sunday Only Christians? Actually share with them what will help? Have a place that does their job and removes children and protects them?

The hard reality to this is that when we don’t…SATAN will and does. I have now seen it and it is dark and heavy. I decided to go to a prayer meeting at church tonight. The KIDS did not stop praying! They just kept going! I sat and closed my eyes and just listened and then wept. Satan is after our children in a big way. Look at what Hamas (Satan) is doing. It’s beyond horrific.

Some of my “church hurt” came from me teaching biblical truth and parents, who attended the church for years, slammed me for doing so. “We don’t want our kids hearing that.” “You can’t say there is one truth.” These are parents that I worked side by side with in youth ministry. Who sang the worship songs. Attended bible studies.

My eyes are opened to a lot of what truly was going on during my time in youth ministry. I got slammed over and over for speaking basic biblical truths. For standing up against allowing demonic games being played IN the church. Well….Amy is back and MUCH stronger and wiser and has now seen with her eyes what Satan does to children and she isn’t backing down.

These verses came to me way back when I felt called to ministry and they have come back to me again. I think this time I am recognizing that I really am “set apart” for something much bigger than me (no short jokes) and that there is some kind of anointing on me like people have said over the years. I’m still trying to figure out how to live in your anointing.

Isaiah 61:1-2 “The Spirit of the Lord God is upon me, because the Lord has anointed me to bring good news to the poor; he has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted, to proclaim liberty to the captives, and the opening of the prison to those who are bound; to proclaim the year of the Lord’s favor, and the day of vengeance of our God; to comfort all who mourn.”

I might be stumbling my way through this calling on my life but I’m not stopping.