December 29th was my last day working in the social work field. I turned in my printer, laptop, cell phone, badge and office keys on January 2nd and then went home and fell asleep for several hours. Not exactly what I thought I would be doing to celebrate!
I’ve actually been sleeping a lot the past two weeks. A LOT. I am not one who takes naps but over the past few weeks it seems that’s all my body has wanted to do! When I went part-time 7 months ago, my heart rate dropped something crazy like 42 points and it has continued to be that way. Someone recently asked what it is now that I have quit. I haven’t been wearing my watch for two weeks but once I charge it up I will find out.
I have already noticed some major differences. Outside of sleeping, my appetite is back. I am constantly hungry! Before, I would eat just to curb the hunger and keep going or I was too stressed to eat. I have been cooking very healthy meals again and it feels good.
My mind feels much less overwhelmed. The relief from that alone is worth resigning! My mind could not handle hearing peoples stories anymore, whether it was at work or with friends. It kept me from being a good friend at times, which is a horrible feeling.
I now have more headspace to reintroduce things that I love and enjoy back into my life…slowly.
I feel much more free to have fun because I have more time to have fun! (Once I’m not sleeping all the time)
Several people told me during all of this to “just quit and get another job!” Well, it’s not always that easy. Yes, there were jobs I could have had and yes, I was about to go mow yards to get a break, but it didn’t feel right.
We all have a calling and purpose but I’ve known mine since I was a kid and even though I REALLY struggled with it for a few years, I knew I couldn’t “just get a job.” I have always viewed life and lived life differently than others and after the past few years, I am thankful for that. Life is too short to cave to what society expects of you. There is so much more to life than living for the material things we strive for. This adventure God continues to have me on has brought healing, made me learn some life lessons, made me stop everything to get back on track, focus so I could hear and see what God was and is showing me and saying YES to what God is asking me to do.
Don’t just settle for a “job.” Take a step of faith and see what God does. Live in your calling and if you’re not sure what it is then, stop and ask God and then listen and watch. Don’t settle. It’s just not worth it!
Butterflies & Bumblebees 