Steps of faith are hard! Almost a year ago I submitted my resignation at work. I was burnt out and wanted nothing to do with social work. If you follow the blog then you know I ended up staying and eventually went part-time over the summer.
Part-time was absolutely the right decision. I was able to slow down and rest. Continue to let my ankle heal and manage the long COVID symptoms. My heart rate dropped to where it should be. My anxiety level dropped significantly. I started feeling healthy again.
I have watched God launch this counseling ministry over the last 6 months and I’m still in awe. I didn’t see this ministry coming. In fact, I was done with ministry. The location God chose for my office to be still floors me. It was hard going there every week over the summer but I took it as a time of more healing. Now it’s just bittersweet.
I believe God is asking me to take a step of faith, again, and resign from social work. I’m glad I stayed another year, though. I’m thankful for not resigning while being burnt out. I would have gone out on a low note and that’s not how Amy likes to do things. Now I can say that I’m going out because it’s time to move into the new.
I had two meetings yesterday and found myself a little emotional after each one. I have done this for 15 1/2 years. I have no idea how many families I have worked with. A lot! How many kids I have advocated for. It’s what I’ve known and have done very well in.
I sat at the office today and realized how much things have changed. There is no life in our office anymore. I rarely go there because it’s not busy with staff and clients anymore. It hit me that it’s time and that time is 4 1/2 weeks away when I submit my resignation. I cried. It came from somewhere pretty deep. I have great memories and I’ve had some awesome co-workers. I know the system, well, the best you can! It’s what I’ve known.
I’ve been watching the 4 page vision God gave me continue to come true. God has placed the right people in my life recently to help bring two things from the vision to life. I will share those things in time. I have found myself exhausted after work but energized after meeting with my counseling kiddos. I have less time for myself because I’ve been doing full-time hours even though I’m part-time. I can tell my mind is starting to be overwhelmed again and I refuse to go backwards.
So…I’m going to resign and put more time into growing the counseling ministry. After hearing kids say they turned to Satan, I’m determined to provide a place that offers the Truth. I’m going to write and create and launch what’s coming next. God is all over this. He’s the one who started it! God will provide, He always does. A new adventure is coming!
Prayers would be great. My clients are aware that I have one foot out the door and have begged me to stay. I really like my clients but there will always be clients that I would be leaving.
Prayers that more kids come for counseling.
I’m excited and scared all at the same time but it’s gonna be a blast!
COUNTDOWN: 4 1/2 weeks!
Butterflies & Bumblebees 